Vent Session

I can't believe he would do this. Just when I think I've shut him enough out of my life that he can't hurt me anymore, he has to prove me wrong.

All I've wanted for a really long time is this one thing, this one dream that has been getting me through the past five years. It was the perfect plan and I've been working my ass off to make it happen for two straight years now. It would get me the life I wanted, where I wanted it, and who I wanted it with.

It was dependent completely on me. I would raise the money, I would do the dirty work, I would go the distance, and I would be the one to live with the results. It seemed completely fool-proof.

But, in typical Cory fashion, he managed to find the one way that would ruin it all. And he doesn't even realize what he's doing or how impartant this is to me. Which, I guess to be fair, is partly my fault for shutting him out so completely so that he doesn't even know I have plans that he could ruin....

And me, being the good little daughter that I am, will probably never tell him. I'll let him think that everything's fine, because confronting him on it would just make him aware that he can still get to me. It would be tangible evidence that I'm not invulnerable to him.

Is that all that's holding me back from talking to him about it? Pride?

Am I really going to let pride be the thing to keep me from living my dream?